situations.

sometimes people don't see eye to eye on things, and apparently, as a result of this, certain "situations" arise, and one party which was avidly involved somehow suffers from a loss of words. i don't ever have these moments. my silence doesn't come from not knowing what to say, it comes from knowing when not to say certain things. i usually never bite me tounge, and when i do, its because i have the best interest for the bigger picture at heart. im sorry that i can't always be the upbeat and goofy person that i usually am. my apologies for just wanting to relax for a change. i mean, i try, i really do. i'll admit that sometimes it isn't my hardest, but there's always some kind of effort. sorry that you haven't noticed that i'm so fuckin stressed right now that my social life has been pretty much non-existent for weeks, or maybe even the fact that i've lost about 15 pounds in the past month or so, which isn't the healthiest thing in the world. idk, i really don't. maybe its me. maybe i need to be pushin it to the limit all day, every day. maybe not...