rebirth.

1st Corinthians 13:4-8
Love is patient. Love is kind. It is not jealous, boastful, proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustices but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. Love will last forever, but prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will all disappear.

*the above passage comes from the bible. the next passage comes from my angel.*

   I'm not usually a spiritual person but lately this scripture has been speaking wonders. It's made me think. About me, you, and definitely about us. A year or so ago, I would've never thought you completely filled this description of love. But now I see there could never be a better fit than you. You are my love and you have been for the longest, no matter how much I've been in denial, there's no getting around it. I noticed the part about being boastful and smiled at your level of maturity. I used to hate when you wouldn't be hype on me but now I realized that you don't have to boo love in public to show your affection.
   Babe, I'm glad you've never given up on me. As many times as I've let you down, I really appreciate your continuous support for me. I'm also glad you still have faith in us. I could never really tell you how I felt because you were somewhat reclusive and didn't really express your feelings. But over the years, I've noticed your unspoken faith and perseverance in making things work for us. I think our problem was we weren't trying hard enough at the same time. But what matters is we both tried and still are trying to make it work. I am definitely hopeful in our future because I know that after the storms comes the sunshine.
   As we both can see our love has endured every circumstance that's been thrown at us. Look where we're at. We can say we're kind of back at the start. We will be back together soon so everything that's gone on in the past has definitely not held us down.
"Love lasts forever."
   This is the deepest line I've ever read in my whole life because it's true. No matter  how many relationships I've had with false notions of infatuation, there will never be a boy, no excuse me, a man that can claim complete ownership of my heart. I've been in denial about my feelings for you. I've tried filling the hole you left with these silly boys who could never be on your level. Now I realize bringing them into my life inflicted extra pain and conflict on not only me but them also.
   I was a damn fool for thinking I could shake you. You have been the most influential person in my life for so long that there's no possible way I could ever lose you again. Rhys, I love you to death (literally). I will forever be by your side because that's the only place i feel right. You say I {complete} you but I think you're the one who {completes} me (thanks Sisqo for those lyrics lol). I'm nothing without you so I'm sticking with you, if that's ok with you.

I love you more babe,
Nykia Charae Sizemore


This shit really brought a tear to my eye. Like I didn't even know where it came from. It was a tear of happiness and joy though. I'm so happy that we've worked through all the trials and tribulations. I don't think there is anybody in this world that I admire more than you. Not only for always being there, but for putting up with my stupidity and my immaturity. You really brighten up my life, and I really mean that. If there is ever a problem with anything, no matter what it is, you can fix it, and I'm sure that I can help with yours. I really want to spend every moment of my life with you, right up until my last breath (even though your a liar and a cheater ). I just want you to know that I love you more than life itself (literally) and there is nothing in this world that can change that.

my life, your entertainment.

it's crazy the way things are. i've been up here for almost 3 months, yet it feels like an eternity. i mean, i knew that things were gonna be hard, but i didn't think that it was gonna be like this. even though it doesn't seem like it sometimes, i really do miss you, and it hurts me more each day that im not with you. it got to the point that i didn't want to come home because it was like somebody was teasing me. all the hours sitting out on your step, or on 40th street, or laying on my couch are definitely not taken for granted. im not gonna lie, there are times when you are unappreciated, and im really sorry for that. i just know that things aren't going the best for us now and i really wanna patch things up before you leave for school. i mean, we think that this is hard now, but when you leave i really dont know what im gonna do with myself. something happens everyday that makes me realize more and more how lucky i am to have somebody like you in my life. i say this all the time, and i hope you believe me, but i really do love you with everything in my heart. its crazy because i know that our time is gonna be short lived with you going to school and me going back too, and i just wanna make the best out of what we have. im really under a lot of pressure from schoolwork and whatnot, but thats not an excuse for the lack of attention ive been giving you. idk babe, i just dont wanna be hurt again, and i definitely dont wanna hurt you. ive said it before and im gonna say it again. id sacrifice me being with you as long as your happy, because, although that would really kill me inside, i would be happy with the fact that your happy. Nykia Charae Sizemore, i just want you to know that i love you with all my heart, and that's never gonna change.